“SOMEONE CONVINCED ME LATELY TO REVEL IN THE NATURAL REAL ME . TO BE PROUD OF THAT AWKWARD BOY. REWARD HIM AND BE BRAZEN AND EXTROVERT.
IRONICALLY , I HAVE BEEN BEING HIM IN MY MUSIC FOR AS LONG AS I REMEMBER, BUT SELDOM HAVE I FELT PRIVATELY COMFORTABLE. WHEN YOU LIVE AS THE PERSON YOU THINK YOU SHOULD HAVE ALWAYS BEEN IT IS CONFUSING.
ON MANY LEVELS AM I CONFUSED. INCLUDING SOCIALISING. APPARENTLY I HAVE SOCIAL ANXIETY. MAKES SENSE I GUESS.
BEING AND WORKING WITH PEOPLE IS ALWAYS TURBULENT.
TO BE NICE, TO BE FIRM, TO BE REWARDED, TO BE FAIR.
I HAVE FOUND MYSELF UTTERLY FRUSTRATED BY MY DESIRE TO PLEASE AND TO BE LOVED.
YOU CANNOT CHANGE OR CONTROL PEOPLE FROM THE CORE. THEY WILL ALWAYS HAVE THEIR OWN OPINIONS AND PERCEPTION OF WHO YOU ARE. THEY WILL HURT YOU AND THEY WILL LOVE YOU ON THEIR TERMS, NOT YOURS.
WHEN YOU GIVE TOO MUCH THEY TAKE MORE, WHEN YOU TAKE TOO MUCH THEY GIVE YOU THE GUILT.
EXAGGERATE THE COLOURFUL RIDICULOUS ECCENTRIC SELF. THE CROSS DRESSING, AGGRESSIVE, EMOTIONAL, GENTLE, HUNGRY ANIMAL .
STAY WITH YOURSELF AND GIVE THEM LESS TO PREJUDGE.
OH DEAR, THIS SELF HELP SESSION NEEDS TO END HERE,” — Chris Corner