Never thought I would be so pleased cause of holidays. Usu they are the most boring time. Last summer I even refused to go to Crimea. To that horrible, dirty place to look after 2 old guys??? Shit, never! But last summer they went to different, more comfortable place! jerks...Whatever.
I feel so relived. Like never before. Even forgot that terrible feeling deep in my heart.
Even forgot that my best friend has such a problem. It nice to have not many friends - you don't have to worry much....Maybe there would be even less than now - I'm bad friend. I haven't called my friend asking how was her last exam and even refused to meet her...It's been 2 days now.
That all because I feel ill. I don't know the name of this disease. I just don't want to eat so I lose my weight quickly, I have headache, stomachache and I haven't sleep well for a long time now.
Eventually, there are nobody who can heal me - I have all my friend got off. I don't know...maybe I have finally offend to death one of them - he deleted me from friends on every site we were both logged))) Whatever...
Now I lonely and it is only my guilt.