Настроение сейчас - [be/a]mused

In fact so funny that I cant even pick the right track!
Its never been like that before. But then again, many things have been different lately so I should've kinda adapted to it already. Looks like I havent. Yet. Anyway, that's not the point. Now. I feel soooo amusingly unhinged that I know the dire consquences that any melancholic tune would bring, whereas anything positive would feel too loud and fake at the moment.
I think the blood of Malkav calls to me from within.
And thus I abide. In silence.

OR DO I?

"I swung the chair upon which I had been sitting, and grated it upon the boards, but the noise arose over all and continually increased. It grew louder --louder --louder! And still the men chatted pleasantly, and smiled. Was it possible they heard not? Almighty God! --no, no! They heard! --they suspected! --they knew! --they were making a mockery of my horror!-this I thought, and this I think. But anything was better than this agony! Anything was more tolerable than this derision! I could bear those hypocritical smiles no longer! I felt that I must scream or die! and now --again! --hark! louder! louder! louder! louder!
"Villains!" I shrieked, "dissemble no more! I admit the deed! --tear up the planks! here, here! --It is the beating of his hideous heart!" "

It is sort of funny, but I feel I've mentioned that already, have I not?

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