oh well.hmm.. ok.  so,after I forbad myself to dream about u things went mad 4 me. can u imagine how hard it is not to dream about one certain thing especially when this thing is the first to come on your mind?it's something essential 4 me-dreaming. and when suddenly i just can't do what i'm used to for 15 years..wow..the deal is- I was really controlling myself. REALLY.

now i'm not dreaming.it's awfull.and it seems to me that u have faded away from my mind. bastard