This post isn't made special for anyone, it's just something that appeared in my soul and i really need to write it down. If you can read it ok, if not, then this post is not so important. I just feel so lazy to write it on the paper, but the keyboard seems ok.
So... All of us may be only once but felt very lonely. Not because you don't have friends or family, this is kind of deep feeling in your soul, in your heart. You wanted to talk to someone but clearly understood that noone will understand your feelings because they are almost impossible to describe. That's why you could drink some alcohol, smoke, cry or just try to fall asleep. But this feeling has already scratched your heart and can come back any time. I am not an exeption cause i am absolutely normal girl. Perhaps i feel such awful thing even more often than some avarage person. I don't know, but this happens pretty usual with me. What do I do? I usually cry, listen to some very sad song like "Whiskey lullaby" or "Haru Haru". I can also drink a glass of wine to relax a little but still I need to live this feeling through.
But not so long ago I understood that i'm not alone. Yes, there can be no real people around me with who i can share my worries and bitter but I've got my Korean and Japanese idols. They are always with me, cause they are always in my heart. And I can tell them that I'm really sad for example or I don't know what to do and it scaries me so much that i can't even think. They will never tell me that all my worries are bullshit, they will never tell me they are busy to listen to a nasty silly girl, they will never laugh when i'm ready to burst into tears. Their images in my heart are like my personal angels who are standing like a little army behind my back ready to support me any time i need it. And I fell their support. They give me power to do something I am afraid of or finish my work when i'm very tired and wanna sleep. They even make my personality better.
Does that sound strange? May be. But not for me. All of us are some kind of crazy guys. So if it is ok to talk to your grandparents grave telling them all the latest news why is it weird to talk to the image of a person who is deep in your heart whose work you do appreciate and who you always support? Especially if it helps you to feel better. I do understand that in reality these people can be terrible and naughty but since i can't call them on the phone right away and check, why should I worry about it?
This is my army)
KAT-TUN. My first love. I will always admire their music. And i will always love and support this band.
Then comes BIG BANG and especially... OMG, they are ALL special. Each member of this band is so unique and can inspire my. These are their new images, they're gorgeous. One day I'll write a big post about this band.
Who else? Defenetely INFINITE. Their music, their voices give me amazing support. They're just at the beginning of their road. And it so hard.
OK, Kashiki, I feel like you gonna ask me where's my sweetiest boy))) Here he is. Tae Yang from BIG BANG. I never liked this type of boys. I almost hated this very guy when i watched Tonight video for the first time. I didn't like his style, his hair, his high voice but then some magic happenned. Don't you think he is cute?)))
No-no, there's a girl in this company too. Her name is Kitagawa Keiko. She's a nice actress and working really hard.
And the latest actor who managed to touch my heart is Baba Ryoma. His ability to look like a cold samurai in the movie and totally crazy and funny guy in real life is fantastic.
Бенги и Инфиниты тоже мои любимки))