Julian was right as usual...such a fucking experiensed person...sometimes riding his on-line diary *www.julian.tp2p.com* last post is here:
"Believe nothing just because a so-called wise person said it. Believe nothing just because a belief is generally held. Believe nothing just because it is said in ancient books. Believe nothing just because it is said to be of divine origin. Believe nothing just because someone else believes it. Believe only what you yourself test and judge to be true."
Just 2day was thinking if I can and should make some of his ideas a part of my personality..I can. More then that : I already DO. I do not expect from people too much, just refused from that , and it helps me 2 moove on.