how do people became feel themselves happy?
its so weird when you walk, talk, breath, drink and eat just like everybody else, but inside of you there's something different. it is differ you from everyone else. you just don't want to be another mouse in cage, live like them: every day do the same things and have no answer for "life - question".
and really cant see the meaning of life. whats the point? who are those people around you? do they love you like they told you? why it's so similar? why days look like one long uninteresting story?
no exit. u can except it or not. you can choose. but you have no choice sometimes. and killing u. day by day. nothing can help u. and you knew that it would be so... some years ago (some years ago).