Настроение сейчас - никак и ничего

Oh shit.. how many times in my fucking life i'm going to hate myself and this creepy place where i live in?
this cold loneliness makes me sick. a hate to hear people acting like if they were wise and clever. they are making meaningless advices that are stupid from the very beginnig. but that's just words. is it true that i'm living in a silly world? is it just only because of i don't have this fucking feeling i need so fucking much? life is goddamn cold until you find your place here..and i din't seem to find it soon..
and what the fuck am i writing this shit in english!?