Случайно обнаружил несколько тетрадок с текстами собственных песен) Захотелось что-нибудь законспектировать здесь... всё-таки неясно, мои тексты - это просто ассоциативный ряд, или есть в этом смысл?

Вот это вот было написано, если я не ошибаюсь, в марте-месяце:
Rushing in disturbance,
Hiding in disguise
I was trying to get wallowed
It your eyes, in your eyes...
I just want to vanish in bleach,
To stuck in the flow of your veins...
So hard to touch, to reach,
And there's nothing left to say...
Whispers in my head
Don't belong to you, nor to me,
I'm sold for another friend -
Is this the way, that it should be?..
I just want to vanish in bleach,
To stuck in the flow of your veins...
So hard to touch, to reach,
And there's nothing left to say...
*aahha-aahha-aahha-aahha*
Throw this all away...
Nothing's left to say,
My lIfe's still the same,
Please, just go away...
THROW THIS ALL AWAY!!!
NOTHING'S LEFT TO SAY!!!
THIS SHIT'S STILL THE SAME!!!
THROW IT ALL AWAY!!!...

Этот текст пожёстче:
I'm lying in a dusty corner,
Feeling like it's burying me,
Washing of my honor,
Worsening my disease,
What should I be proud of,
Why should I have fun?
Splendid private torture -
Why should it be mine?!
Gaudy make-up masking
Is my inviolable rite,
Traditions're scrathing my skin,
The crowd begins to shout
The floodlight searches for my face,
Making my eyes bleed,
Pitiful performance -
Why should I do it?!
Awake and take every-fucking-thing I own,
That is my hope, my only dream!
Something inside, something in my brain is
Incensing me, incensing me!

Мля, больше не успеваю, гонють)