Duality

(I Push my fingers into my) eyes...
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache...
But it's made of all the things I have to take...
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside...
If the pain goes on...
Aaaaaaaah!

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited last, my time's elapsed
Now, All I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact:
You cannot kill what you did not create
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You're left with me 'cause you left me no choice

(I push my fingers into my) eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

Put me back together
Or separate the skin from the bone
Leave me all the Pieces, then you can leave me
alone
Tell me the reality is better than a dream
But I found out the hard way-
Nothing is what it seems!

(I push my fingers into my) eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the thing I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!


All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane!
All I've got...all I've got is insane!

(I push my fingers into my) eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the thing I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!...



Diluted

I'm cold I'm ugly
I'm always confused by everything
I can stare into a thousand eyes
But every smile hides a bold faced lie

It itches it seethes it festers and breathes
My heros are dead they died in my head
Thin out the herd squeeze out the pain
Something inside me has opened up again

Thoughts of me exemplified
All the little flaws I have denied
Forget today forget whatever happened
Everyday I see a little more of overall deficiencies
I'm nothing short of being one complete catastrophe

What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?

I save all the bullets from ignorant minds
Your insults get stuck in my teeth as they grind
Way past good taste, on our way to bad omens
I decrease, while my symptoms increase

God what the fuck is wrong
You act like you knew it all along
Your timing sucks, your silence is a blessing

All I ever wanted out of you was
Something you could never be
Now take a real good look at
What you've fucking done to me

What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?

Gimme any reason why I'd need you, boy
Gimme any reason not to fuck you up
Gimme any reason why I'd need you, bitch
Gimme any reason not to fuck you up

I see you in me

I keep my scars from prying eyes
Incapable of ever knowing why
Somebody breathe, I've got to have an answer

Why am I so fascinated by
Bigger pictures, better things
But I don't care what you think
You'll never understand me

What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?




Disasterpiece


I wanna slit your throat and fuck the wound
I wanna push my face in and feel the swoon
I wanna dig inside, find a little bit of me
Cuz the line gets crossed when you don't come clean

My wormwood meets your pesticide
You'll never get out, coz you were never alive
I am infinite, I am the infant finite
Come a little closer and I'll show you why

(NO ONE IS - SAFE)
Noises, noises, people make noises
People make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to NOTHING

How does it feel to be locked inside another dream
That never had a chance of being realized?
What the fuck are you lookin' at?
I'll tell you what you're lookin' at
Everyone you ever fuckin' laughed at

Look in my eyes for the answers - typical
I can feel it underneath like a miracle
Everybody in the world needs more than
Lies and consequences to poser them
Once again, it's me and no one else
I can't remember if there was a someone else
It's not mine, it's not fair, it's outta my hands
And it's shaking - you'll never take me




Eeyore

Meet the man that made me
Greet the can I came from
Oh the fucking sacred heart of Jesus
BLEW it in the back room
Feelin' like a real goon
Slam the fuck aside, man
I'M ON - YOU'RE NOT

I AM THE GREAT BIG MOUTH

Good riddance - though I'm sad to say
I didn't get to kill you
Rhetoric - Better look both ways
I gotta get an arm through
STAIN
What the fuck is up? Get the fuck away
Run if you want to
Innocent? You're a guilty conscience
Laugh last - break through
STAIN

Prepare you fucker

I don't give a shit, bitch
I don't give a fuck, bitch
I don't understand, bitch
You don't matter
I don't give a fuck, man
I don't give a shit, man
I don't really care, man
I'm the super sized man



Eyeless


Insane Am I the only muthafucker with a brain?
I'm hearing voices but all they do is complain
How many times have you wanted to kill
Everything and everyone Say you'll do it but never will

You can't see California without Marlon Brando's eyes

I am my Father's son
He's a phantom a mystery and that leaves me
Nothing!
How many times have you wanted to die?
It's too late for me. All you have to do is get rid of me!

You can't see California without Marlon Brando's eyes

It's all in your head
It's all in my head
It's all in your head

I tried - You lied to me for so long
Everywhere I go, there's a sense of it
Freak on my antics and give me a choice
Doesn't matter if I give a shit
It's shit that you gave me

You can't see California without Marlon Brando's eyes

It's all in your head
It's all in my head
It's all in your head

Do you wanna feel pain? Takin' my name in vain
Caring never felt so lame inside



Gently



Gently, my mind escapes into the relaxing

world of pleasure, a pleasure that'll take

my mind off the reality of my life,

my past life... life as I know it now.


And whatever may come, it slowly

disappears to somewhere in the back

of my mind. It will remain there,

until I wish to retrieve it.


Yes, I will stay here for a while,

for I need the break. A break from the

pressures of life, and everything

that lays in the palm of life's hands.


This mode is incredible. It's out of

this world. Too bad I must always leave it...

... but that's life.



Left Behind



I've known faces that have disapeared in time

Find me wrapped in glass and slowly soaked in lime

All My friends have pictures made to make you cry

I've seen this and wondered what I've done to calcify


(I ignore you)

As I close my eyes I feel it all slipping away

(I come toward you)

We all got left behind, we let it all slip away


I can't stand to see your thalidomide robot face

Don't even try it! You had to be a liar just to
infiltrate me - I'm still drowing


(I ignore you)

As I close my eyes, i feel it all slipping away

(I come toward you)

We all got left behind, we let it all slip away


...Take...this...away...

I can feel it on my mouth

I can taste you on my fingers

I can hear you like the holy ghost

And kill you if you get to close




Liberate

Liberate...My madness!
(One of me, all of you)
Liberate...My madness!
I just want to
Liberate...My madness!
(One of me, all of you)
Liberate...My madness!

Section off myself
Put a wall up, what the hell have I done?
Keep the dog at bay, survive by saving me!
Values in the game
Not a fuck-up, not a part of your lie
I am one, I am all - I'm above and beyond!

Stand off of the shit
Back off or I'll spit
So soft, you forget
(Your garbage in is garbage out)
You just don't give a shit
I won't benefit
Get off, get on this
(Your garbage in is garbage out)

Liberate my madness

Liberate...My madness!
(One of me, all of you)
Liberate...My madness!
I just want to
Liberate...My madness!
(One of me, all of you)
Liberate...My madness!

I am not ashamed
What is vital, isn't always humane
You can't break in vain
But you can't break away!
Even in my face
Lotta bullshit, not alotta the truth
I can't see from here
But I can smell your fear!

Back off of the shit
Stand off or I'll spit
So soft, you forget
(Your garbage in is garbage out)
You just don't give a shit
I won't benefit
Get off, get on this
(Your garbage in is garbage out)

Saved - You're such a slave - I don't expect a name
You don't care - I wasn't witness
I can't be a part of a system such as this
Hard eyes - Glow right - In my - Darkness - Again
With the sickness, renegade sisters, blisters
Salivate, litigate, liberate, madness, sadness
Fuck this - How long have I had this?
I don't need this - Outta my business!
Insert, engage, betrayed, my God!

Fraud!

Fraud!

Fraud!

Liberate...My madness!
Liberate...My madness!
I just want to
Liberate...My madness!
Liberate...My madness!




Metabolic

Gone, I couldn't murder your promise
Right before my eyes
The revolutions of my psychosis
Kept me out of the way

Once - Inside - All I hold is ash

Fail - suppressing every feeling
I'm in so much pain
I have every fucking right to hate you
I can't take it

The hardest part was knowing that I could never be you
Now all I do is sit around and wish I could forget you

My demise - I took a life worth living
And made it worth a mockery
I deny - And fold - But they keep on coming
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me

Who are you to me? Who am I to you?
Is this a lesson in nepotistic negligence?
By default, you are my only link to the outside
Psychosomatic suicide
Where were you when I was down?
Can you show me a way?
To face everyday with this face, goodbye

My demise - I took a life worth living
And made it worth a mockery
I deny - And fold - But they keep on coming
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me

When I blur my eyes
They make the whole world breathe
I see you fucking me
And I am absolutely controlling every urge to mutilate
The one and only answer

So much for memories...

I wanna dress in your insecurities
And be the perfect you - I'm through
I'm out-stretched out for all to loathe
Here we go, the ultimate irony

My demise - I took a life worth living
And made it worth a mockery
I deny - And fold - But they keep on coming
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me
Killing me! (Stop)
Killing me! (Stop)
Killing me! (Stop)

Killing me!




New Abortion



I'm ethereal, my children are legion, serial

They stick to my skin like beloved cysts

I tear away with my nails and teeth and fists

Touch the hands of inverted saints

Follow my heart through the threaded pain

Callow man is a sentinel screaming

I see the future; the future is bleeding


Sores, every goddamn minute I can feel 'em now

Like a virus, you will never kill me now

Goin' underground, comin' on like hepatitis

We're out - and you can't reshape us

Another bug in the construct

Tearin' up the main bus B

Zeros and ones are everything - execute me


Everywhere you look, it's like they know

Their fingerprints are hidden by CONTROL

New Abortion



I'm ethereal, my children are legion, serial

They stick to my skin like beloved cysts

I tear away with my nails and teeth and fists

Touch the hands of inverted saints

Follow my heart through the threaded pain

Callow man is a sentinel screaming

I see the future; the future is bleeding


Sores, every goddamn minute I can feel 'em now

Like a virus, you will never kill me now

Goin' underground, comin' on like hepatitis

We're out - and you can't reshape us

Another bug in the construct

Tearin' up the main bus B

Zeros and ones are everything - execute me


Everywhere you look, it's like they know

Their fingerprints are hidden by CONTROL

This is where the line is drawn, see

YOU CAN'T TAKE MY SOUL AWAY FROM ME


What do you need to see? Ya feel the impact?

Gotta retract - everybody get back

What is this? It's like a big conspiracy

Fields of dejected morbid progeny

They always say that it's always our fault

But everything we say is taken with a grain of salt

Man, it's always the same, if we talk or complain

We only wanna upset the balance

How's it feel to be the New Abortioin?

The only generation to suffer extortion


Everywhere you look, it's like they know

Their fingerprints are hidden by CONTROL

This is where the line is drawn, see

YOU CAN'T TAKE MY SOUL AWAY FROM ME


YOU CAN'T TAKE MY SOUL AWAY FROM ME



Here we go again motherfucker


Come on down and see the idiot right here

too fucked to beg and not afraid to care

Whats the matter with calamity anyways?

right? get the fuck out of my face

understand I cant feel anything

it isn't like I wanna sift through the decay

I feel like a wound

and like I got a fucking gun against my head

you live when I'm dead


One more time motherfucker


Everybody hates me now so fuck it

blood's on my face and my hands don't know why,I'm not afraid to cry

but that's none of your business

Whose life is it? Get it? see it? feel it? eat it? spin it around

so I can spit in his face

I wanna leave without a trace

get out, I don't want to die in this place


people=shit

people=shit (what you gonna do)

people=shit ( cuz I'm not afraid of you)

people=shit (I'm everything you'll never be)

people=shit


It never stops

you can't be everything to everyone


Contagion I'm sittin on the side of satan

what do you want from me?

They never told me the failure I was meant to be

Overdo it, don't tell me you blew it, stop your bitchin'

and fight your way through it

I'm not like you

I just fuck up


c'mon mother fucker everybody has to die

c'mon mother fucker everybody has to die !!


people=shit

people=shit (what you gonna do)

people=shit ( cuz I'm not afraid of you)

people=shit (I'm everything you'll never be)

people=shit



Skin Ticket

Zero and zero is nothing but zero
Cancer and people conspire together
Running and running and going forever
Collected and sampled, starving for zero

Come see my cage - built in my grain
Minus the inside and minus the circle
Inhabit the riddle and fill in the hovel
Wherein and herein, between us and near us
Zero and zero is nothing but zero

Come see my cage - built in migraine

Keeping myself alive
Through your EMPATHY




The Blister Exists


One, two, three!


Yeah!


Drop it!


Bones in the water and dust in my lungs

Absorbing, archaic, like a sponge


The ultimate way is the way you control

But can you stay if you detach your soul?


Bury the present and squeeze out the past

The ones you endear to never last


Chemical burns and the animalistic

I'm just another hardline pseudo-statistic


Can you feel this? (Can you feel this?)

I'm dying to feel this! (Dying to feel this)

Can you feel this? (Can you feel this?)

Blood on the paper and skin on my teeth

Trying to commit to what's beneath


To find the time is to lose the momentum

You learn the lessons and immediately forget them


Automatic and out of my reach

Consult all the waste to find the key


Minimal life and the polysyllabic

I'm just another blank page

Push the button, pull the rage!


Can you feel this? (Can you feel this?)

I'm dying to feel this! (Dying to feel this)

Can you feel this? (Can you feel this?)


I am all, but what am I?

Another number that isn't equal to any of you

I control, but I comply

Pick me apart, then pick up the pieces

I'm uneven!


I am the damaged one

All my life and the damage done


I am the damaged one

All my life and the damage done


I am the damaged one

All my life and the damage done


I am the damaged one

All my life and the damage done!


Can you feel this? (Can you feel this?)

I'm dying to feel this (I'm dying to feel this)

Can you feel this? (Can you feel this?)

I'm dying to feel this! (I'm dying to feel this!)

Can you feel this? (Can you feel this?)

I'm dying to feel this! (I'm dying to feel this!)

Can you feel this? (No!)

No!


I am all, but what am I?

Another number that isn't equal to any of you

I control, but I comply

Pick me apart, then pick up the pieces

I'm uneven!


I am all, but what am I?

Another number that isn't equal to any of you

I control, but I comply

Pick me apart, then pick up the pieces

I'm uneven!



The Heretic Anthem

8...7...6...6...6...5...4...3...2...1...

I'm a pop star threat and I'm not dead yet
Got a super dred bet with an angel drug head
Like a dead beat winner, I want to be a sinner
An idolized bang for the industry killer

A hideous man that you don't understand
Throw a suicide party and I'm guaranteed to fucking snap
It's evilsonic, it's pornoholic
Breakdowns, obscenities, it's all I wanna be

If you're 555, then I'm 666
If you're 555, I'm 666
If you're 555, I'm 666
What's it like to be a heretic?
If you're 555, I'm 666
What's it like to be a heretic?

Everybody's so infatuated
Everybody's so completely sure of what we are
Everybody defamates from miles away
But face to face, they haven't got a thing to say

I bleed for this and I bleed for you
Still you look in my face like I'm somebody new
Toy - Nobody wants anything I've got
Which is fine, because you're made of
Everything I'm not

If you're 555, then I'm 666
If you're 555, I'm 666
If you're 555, I'm 666
What's it like to be a heretic?
If you're 555, I'm 666
What's it like to be a heretic?




Three Nil


(One)

(Two)

(Three)

Nil!


Yeah!


Chaos - It's just the beginning

Every promise I made I'm rescinding

Centre mass in the middle of the monster

I'm getting tired of drowning the constant


Cry for help – It's debatable

The only reason that you love me is I'm hated by all

Come on - Come see dysfunction

I guess we're gonna leave it open for discussion


Who am I?

And where am I going?


Maybe I'm looking in the wrong direction

Maybe I'm looking for any direction


This is not my war

This is not my fight

This is something more

This is not my life

(This is not my) Revolution

(This is not my) Convolution

(This is not my) Expectation

(This is not my) Desperation


Yeah!

Holed up, scarred and tamed for the hell of it

Look at me - I am the glorified malcontent

Save me? Save this!

All I gotta do is give up and all is forgiven


I'm sick! – Of being the butt of the cosmic joke

And I don't get the punch line

A million people lined up for miles

To see the great big mouth shut up and apologize!


This is not my war

This is not my fight

This is something more

This is not my life

(This is not my) Revolution

(This is not my) Convolution

(This is not my) Only reason to question why


Today I said goodbye!

Goodbye!

Oh I didn't need to leave to stay right here

Today I'll said goodbye!

Goodbye!

Oh I didn't need to leave to stay right here

Today I'll said goodbye!

Goodbye!

Oh I didn't need to leave to stay right here

Today I'll said goodbye!

Goodbye!

Oh I didn't need to leave to stay right here

Today I'll said goodbye!


Yeah!


I'm the pariah (Break me)

I am the liar (Save me)

I can take anything (Make me)

Accuse me of everything (Take me)


Cut off the system (Shape me)

Deny my existence (Waste me)

I won't be afraid (Try me)

I won't be unmade (Deny me)


So come on - Break it off

Come on - Buy the lie

Come on - Say it, say it!

Come on!

Say goodbye!


Goodbye!

Oh I didn't need to leave to stay right here

Today I'll said goodbye!

Goodbye!

Oh I didn't need to leave to stay right here

Today I'll said goodbye!

Goodbye!

Oh I didn't need to leave to stay right here

Today I'll said goodbye!

Goodbye!

Oh I didn't need to leave to stay right here

Today I'll said goodbye!


(One) One

(Two) Two

(Three) Three

Nil!

Nil!

Yes!





Vermillion Pt. 2

She seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself

Now I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad

She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable
She's a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason

I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad

But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

I catch in my throat
Choke
Torn into pieces
I won't - No
I don't want to be this

But I won't let this build up inside of me
(I won't let this build up inside of me)
I won't let this build up inside of me
(I won't let this build up inside of me)
I won't let this build up inside of me
(I won't let this build up inside of me)
I won't let this build up inside of me
(I won't let this build up inside of me)

Won't let this build up (Build up) inside of me (Inside of me)
Won't let this build up (Build up) inside of me (Inside of me)

She isn't real (I won't let this build up inside of me)
I can't make her real (I won't let this build up inside of me)

She isn't real (I won't let this build up inside of me)
I can't make her real (I won't let this build up inside of me)