why is everything so hard? why cant I understand myself? why do I want one thing but after 2 days the opposite? why cant I stop my mind? just live, dont think about something or someone. why did I so want to exit? and now I think its better to die than to go away. why do I suppose that I cant go through 2 weeks without them? its not real, but I know i gotta miss them... because they're my friends. i really love them. and I dont care if they forgot to love me back. `cuz i'm lost without them. they're the best guys in my life...