Don't stay

sometimes i
need to remember just to breathe
sometimes i
need you to stay away from me
sometimes i'm
in disbelief i didn't know
somehow i
need you to go

sometimes i
feel like i trusted you too well
sometimes i
just feel like screaming at myself
sometimes i'm
in disbelief i didn't know
somehow i
need to be alone

don't stay
forget our memories
forget our possibilities
what you were changing me into
[just give me myself back and]
don't stay
forget our memories
forget our possibilities
take all your faithlessness with you
[just give me myself back and]
don't stay


i don't need you anymore
i don't want to be ignored
i don't need one more day
of you wasting me away

with no apologies


Somewhere I Belong


When this began
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find /that I'm
Not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own

I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone] I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something i've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everywhere/only to find that it's
Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the
Way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
The fault is my own

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today

I want to heal
I want to feel like I'm
Somewhere i belong

Lying from you


when i pretend
everything is what i want it to be
i look exactly like what you had always wanted to see
when i pretend
i can forget about the criminal i am
stealing second after second just cause i know i can / but
i can't pretend this is the way it will stay / i'm just
trying to bend the truth
i can't pretend i'm who you want me to be
so i'm
lying my way from you

[no / no turning back now]
i wanna be pushed aside
so let me go
[no / no turning back now]
let me take back my life
i'd rather be all alone
[no turning back now]
anywhere on my own
cause i can see
[no / no turning back now]
the very worst part of you
is me

i remember what they taught to me
remember condescending talk of who i ought to be
remember listening to all of that and this again
so i pretended up a person who was fitting in
and now you think this person really is me and i'm
[trying to bend the truth]
but the more i push
the more i'm pulling away
'cause i'm

lying my way from you

this isn't what i wanted to be
i never thought that what i said
would have you running from me
like this

the very worst part of you
the very worst part of you
is me


Hit The Floor


there are just too many
times that people
have have tried to look inside of me
wondering what i think of you
and i protect you out of courtesy
too many times that i've
held on when i needed to push away
afraid to say what was on my mind
afraid to say what i need to say
too many
things that you've said about me
when i'm not around
you think having the upper hand
means you've got to keep putting me down
but i've had too many stand-offs with you
it's about as much as i can stand
just wait until the upper hand
is mine
so many people like me
put so much trust in all your lies
so concerned with what you think
to just say what we feel inside
so many people like me
walk on eggshells all day long
all i know is that all i want
is to feel like i'm not stepped on
there are so many things you say
that make me feel like you've crossed the line
what goes up will surely fall
and i'm counting down the time
cause i've had so many stand-offs with you
it's about as much as i can stand
so i'm waiting until the upper hand
is mine

one minute you're on top
the next you're not
watch it drop
making your heart stop
just before you hit the floor
one minute you're on top
the next you're not
missed your shot
making your heart stop
you think you won

and then it's all gone

i know i'll never trust a single thing you say
you knew your lies would divide us
but you lied anyway
and all the lies have got you floating
up above us all
but what goes up has got to fall