i won't stop until im done.

there ve been a lot of things going on. not so much though. but things makes you think.i've been thinking a lot.

the thoughts are not good all the time.mine also.the thing is that it is said that you cannot control the destiny.the way i think is that you have total control over your destiny.it is just matter of your character.either you do things or you just doing the jack ass and watching how s your life getting worse and worse. i am the first one. i always do things, doesn't matter how hard it is or how much time it will take. i knew that it would be hard to move to finland..and everybody told me that i probably won't do it. but i kicked my ass and did it.you just have to move.than you will approach your target.

now i have some more ideas about how and where to go. i will have a year of exchange in 2011-10 in Holland and will have a double bachelor degree in music management. the next goal is to have a first live perfomance till the end of the 2010. i already got idea of organising the experimental party in one of the local clubs. my part is the ambient. i already have a 15 min material. i need to broaden it to the hour or hour and a half.i will do it.at least i will try.the hardest thing is that i have to save some money to buy the midikeyboard and the ableton controller. i also need some audio interface and some other small stuff to play live. that means that i need to get the fucking 1000 or less or even more euros to get it all. at least the midikeyboard is around three hundred bucks.

no worries though.i am okay. my mind is little bit unclear about the ongoing things.but i will go through you know.

Jackie i miss you a lil bit.donno why

.konsti