it is NOT exit - to drink, when you fell bad. But i cant understand my problem, because i cant understand my feelings. I feel very shity feelings, and i hate it. I feel ROTTEN.
I see, that reason is in past, my mind and my fucking attachment. And something more. I was so stupid, because i dindt understand attitube to me.
But im sure - everything will be fine, and better.

To drink - it is for dweebs :)