don't really know what to write. That I'm alone an miserable? Puh-leese, that's not news.
That exams are coming and I don't give a shit?
- Come on! We need something sensational! Something big!
- Well, don't want to dissapoint you, but there's NOTHING.
- God! You gotta do better than that! I mean, Jeez... you're what? 19? Isn't that the age when you need to go crazy? oh no, sorry, that's 16.. but as I know, your life 3 years ago wasn't much more exciting..
- And thank you for pointing that fact out so very fucking much, I appreciate your awareness of my well-being
- No need for sarcasm, I'm just telling the truth
- I know that truth! And I'm very sad about it, okay? I want to go crazy, okay? I want to meet new people, I want to go out, okay? And actually I'm TRYING to do just that, though there's still NOTHING. You cannot blame me for NOT trying, cause I really do!!
- Oh, be honest, at least to yourself, most days you're just sitting at home with your eyes glued to your laptop's screen, trying to drown yourself in 310th urban fantasy book. Baby, that's NOT real, that book-world, the real life is happening OUTSIDE!
- Would you please stop? I already know all that! And what am I supposed to do? Wander in this real life, these streets outside, all alone? That's not very helpful, you know, I'd better wander in the beautiful and immensely more interesting fantasy-world. Though I know, I'll still be alone. And I HATE it, do you think I like it? Do you think I'm enjoying this situation? Lord knows, I want it to change, I want to live that real life, I just...I just don't know...
- I won't tell you "it'll be okay", I know for the fact how you hate that phrase, I'm you after all, but still, we can't deny we gotta do something, you just need to think that out, I know you can, we're smart after all, YOU just too lazy to use all that brain
- Oh, don't blame it all on me
- I'm the voice of the harsh truth, you wanted to hear it, you got it , girl
- And why am I calling myself smart? That's just called mental
- Then how can you explain that most of the world's geniuses weren't really in their right minds? Heh, you can't fool me, we're not mental, we're just we. We're smart and funny and quite pretty I dare say, though I know you don't think that sometimes, if you don't like me calling us pretty, then at least let's say we're not ugly losers.
- Maybe I really am a little bit insane
- You're just listening to your inner voice, that's not insane, everybody does it, they just don't talk about it
- Well, I do apparently
- You're not talking, you're writing it in your DIARY, that scarcely anyone reads, so that can be considered ok
- Maybe I should start writing fiction
- Maybe you should, but you'll get too lazy to finish it anyway
- Damn! I hate it when I'm right!
- Oh ho, now, don't lie to yourself, honey, that just offends me deeply, just think about everything we said, and TRY, please, I beg of you, I'm tired of living like that, we're tired, we need changes, we need something new and exciting, we need to go out, and we need to take more things seriously, just trust yourself, or at least me
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