after nearby three weeks of being abandoned one can begin to understand, what really the importance had included inside that person.
useful or useless he or she was, loving or it had only seemed...
often people doesn't notice who are really them friends or lovers. and live with them, even not understanding that it will be nothing good from that alliance. and sometimes they rapidly, like a flashlight in a hole night, decide about it. and destroy 10-20-30 years old marriages, families.. they are becoming to hate each other, and couldn't excuse. but they couldn't excuse not somebody, but themselves. or i can say, theirself stupidness.
they love themselves and they couldn't decide that only their stupidness provided that foolish alliances, which spent so much time and nervs, and didn't give any good results..
so they try to deny their opponents in all had happened.

stupid people.

interesting, will i see a time when people will decide that their heads are full of lie, lie for anyone to himself?
or this will happen not earlier than cybrpunk era?

now it is of no meant.

i wanted to say about another type of people stupidness.

this type appears when people deny the truth and fall into a lie to themselves only for relaxing their nervous system. to become like all. because they have forgotten that a social status and money are no less a lie then power and authority, then a cheap cinematograph, then transparants on political meetings, then speakings of a president, then our world..

after three weeks of had been abandoned, i understand that i am still loving karina. it is not hard without her. but not too good too. and the real pity is her stupidness. she loves me, i know. but she decided that it is her level.
of course, now i can't provide her all her wishes.
but...
i want to be so perfect so she could say proudly that i am only her!
but.....
i'll become. be sure.
but be aware. your risk is much bigger than you can imagine.
don't become a kitchenwoman before.