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09.12.2007
Things are sometimes happening not the way we want them to be, but, unfortunately we can seldom guess where our destiny is going to take us on her wings. The decision is always unknown and tempting, though things may turn out the way we couldn’t even imagine. And if we could only (slightly open the curtain of something secret and novel) we could become a little bit wiser and more careful about our deeds and wishes. We often can’t distinguish the real thing we want; only when time passes we may see, though not always, the genuine reason of the wished one.

I don’t know why I have chosen you. Maybe I was taken into by you pretty smile, maybe you came across as a very reliable & optimistic person (exactly what I need), or something inside me has just blown off the rest of my sound mind???)) Everything is possible… But still… WHY CANT I SLEEP CALM WHEN I FEEL YOUR BREATH BEHIND MY BACK???


It had happened long ago, I even didn’t know what was the real world like back then. Everything seemed so simple and clear, no one even could imagine that lies may filter in(to) our little paradise. But as ADAM says “shit happens”, so it didn’t make us wait for too long. Nothing remains the same after the hurricane, and only in the eye of the storm you may still feel safe and strong enough to go on living, though you can’t really call this life, more looks like surviving. An endless nightmare that would be filling your soul until finally you won’t give up and become its slave. Not everyone can bare it. If I didn’t have you I don’t know how I could manage to get out of this hell. Seemed like I was drowning though I was still able to make a gulp of air, I couldn’t feel anything, everything was like in the mist, its like I’ve become blind not only in this reality but also my inner world could no more identify right from wrong, top from bottom, nothing, just darkness…. Endless darkness. It was creeping inside of me, in the night I could feel its cold breath, I had no idea what did I have to do with this, (I couldn’t look help from nowhere, so I just kept on wasting all the time doing nothing… the reason is that I’m not used to asking for help, it makes me feel so helpless that I start to hate myself.) the decision couldn’t come from nowhere, but you keep on waiting and hope that everything will be solved somehow. Time is passing by, it ruins you, and tries to subdue and if you won’t it would be slaying you slowly, watching your helplessness cause there won’t be way out back then.
You were the only one I could trust, whom could rely on, who could explain me everything, cause it used to be your hell.


Blind me with your shine!!!!
Show me the way out!!!
Help me! Give me sign!
I am screaming loud!!!!
Free me from the lies
That is shrouding me!!!
Help me with advice!
Help me to foresee!!!
I thought it was curtains for me…..
I couldn’t my real way see…. (I couldn’t see my reality)
I thought that way it wouldn’t be……
Somebody help me to set myself free…………….