Yesterday was not the usual day. We went for a walk with my best friend and his friend from school. Discussing a lot of questions we've got to the theme of their school times. And they started to reminisce loads of jokes, events, experiences, some stages, that they've been getting through. It doesn't matter in what way did they do it. The point is that their frienship lasts for about 10 years and they were moving through the process of growing all together. They were discovering life. The ways that were suitable for them.
So. When I was listening about all that important things, I started to understand that I missed the whole blokes of experiences of life. All of my school memories are poorly connected with friends, some things we were doing together. There are practically NO such memories. I have not a single person from school that I could call my friend. Why? Because I've always been somewhere not where my classmates was. Of course I can find some justifications for that but it will not change the point. Anyway, I didn't see any interesting people amongst my classmates, and I don't see it now. Secondly, Surgut isn't the best place to hang on the streets. And to spend childhood. Thirdly, I was completely different person, who was black-eyed with some stereotipes about studying and all that shit.
And... Finally, I can't even say that I LIVED in those years. And that was not very pleasant thing to discover, actually... Was a feeling that I simply have wasted all those years for nothing. And that's not far from the truth...
Anyway, I choosed my way to discover the life. And yesterday I decided that that would be useful to stop wasting myself and leave my memories blank.
...in some way I've been even jealous that my childhood was not so interesting as theirs...strange feeling..but it made me think of it...
Actually, I am missing a lot of parts of life right now. That is not good. It's got to be changed.