I`m envy for my classmates who have great time, meeting each other and just have fun there. They communicate easily with each other and... they are just happy. When I`m sitting at home and try to analyse my behaivior and my thoughts. Read books, too. Go to the church.

I understand that they are easier that me and they have fun because they drink alcohol, and they love each other just because they have fun with them. And I just haven`t done anythink to be with them now. And I understand that they are not my company, and maybe I`m cleverer that most of them, and many of them is like usual teen... And maybe they will end up badly. And they have their problems too. and many other things... I understand it, but... I`m envy anyway.

Well...
Хотя бы я признаюсь себе в этом честно.