Not sure if this is going to help or actually make matters worse. Just really want to write down at 22 what I imagine my perfect man being. Maybe only after I do I will get over this crazy idea of a perfect guy. Here we go then. Word diarrhoea about to come out.

He has to be tall, good looking, with a cute smile and nice teeth. He should preferably have curly hair because I just have a thing for that. We need to have a lot in common. He needs to be very smart and also very politically involved and take a huge interest in what I am interested in. He needs to have his own opinions and not be scared to voice them in front of anyone. It would of course be great if he was half ukrainian or even fully but just aware of my home culture so that he would be able to understand my family and were I come from and be able to converse with my relatives. He also though needs to have an understanding of the Western culture, a pretty damn good one and of course speak good english. I should never be embarrassed of being with him around other people. He needs to ambitious and successful. In whatever he does as well. He needs to be emotional and not scared of emotions and thus have a slightly softer side. He obviously needs to be faithful and care for me like for no one else. Most importantly he has to handle all my crazy and love me for who I am and not be scared off by whatever I do, whether thats message him or annoy him with my crazy loops and obsessions. He needs to support me and believe in me. He needs to love me.