Oh yes. It's definitely time to get the fuck over. It's never been this long. I don't want it to be this long. Now it's time to start thinking with my brains and not feelings. Only solution out: do not speak to anyone about it, even if you get mad/upset/crazy. Just keep it all in. The more I talk the more it seems I feel and that's not good. I wish people could just tell me exactly what to do and how to deal with this. But they don't. I'm dreading tomorrow, if I'm strong enough I just won't go out - as simple as that. It's my life and I make all the decisions. No more looking back at what happened, what he said, what I did and etc. That was in the past, now it's all over. It's time to just try and move on. Before I never wanted to move on, always had that last bit of hope left. Now its gone, well I hope it is. Anyway. 1. Do not get upset if I see him with someone else 2. Do not text or fb him. 3. Even if he makes any moves in the near future do not go for it (just in case, although highly unrealistic). JUST MAN THE FUCK UP AND FUCK IT.