You know the feeling when your mind fucks the hell out of you with thoughts? Unnecessary thoughts, that in reality come pretty much out of nowhere? Well that's whats happening to me. Right now I am the typical GIRL. When I say this I literally mean every 4 letters of this word. It's crazy.
So what do typical girls say? Boys are such unpredictable, weird dicks. And thats exactly what I'm thinking. You think is it really possible that he can say one thing to you and then 24 hours later act and say completely the opposite? You think surely not as if he did he'd be the biggest dick. But you know what, probably he is. All these unnecessary thoughts that come into your head are crazy - sometimes you even think 'gosh, i really should write novels'.
What is most important I think in any situation for a woman is just to be on top of the situation, and if you feel like you're clearly not, just try your best to forget it. Not him, cause trying to make yourself hate him will just make everything much worse, you could even end up hating yourself. SO no matter what happens if he even vaguely said he would write to you - DO NOT WRITE TO HIM FIRST! Ever, as he might not even give shit about you. And even though last time you saw him he might have said "could we please hang out...together....sober....just the two of us...." and you feel like if you write its still him making the first move - BULLSHIT, until he writes that is not true.
So, no matter how bad you want it STOP, and get a friend who can put your brain back in place to talk to you, it will help, if the friend is persuasive enough.
In the end - right now, it's not the situation to hurry things or initiate anything. If he likes you he will come to you.
And just remember "Alex: If a guy doesn't call you, he doesn't want to call you."
So my plan - IM NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING.