But I cant feel it. How are u supposed to have christmas without snow?

Even better-with palms around. Ahhh I guess I need a combination: american christmas with MY family. HereI am not in a Christmas mood, at all. And with whom I am supposed to celebrate it, hah? If everyone is leaving...

Tried to find any cool christmas song but I guess "mad world' suits my mood better now. Even though had fun today drinking coffee with Ivelina&co :) and yesterday with 2 germans and her, and then oksana.

So confused about russians around me, and with whom go to Valencia. Seriously wanna go with bulgarians and germans, but I guess will end up with annya, dima, etc.  Hmmm do they think I am an evil? Guess so. My "faking good attitude" machine has broken, and I show my emotions to ppl.

Jose(my Diego guy) has a novia. And a neckless...ahaha kak osheinik. But whatever, right? How is a guy supposed to behave when he has a gf? Not flirt with other girls. Thats so cool that the only 2 guys I like here have gfs and still are flirty...well and the 3d one is whore:) love americans. And the scarf of catherina is cool. want a yellow one too.

I am seriously tired. I am. I dont know what is goin on and what I am supposed to do in moscow. getting ready for that actually. ahhhh what should I do to be calm there??? cant even explain what feelings I have towards that country. But, ok, gonna be positive.

Giving all these troubles to God. Everything will be awesome. It will.