All my bloogs in this diary are stupid, i think..But i'm so happy inside & so sad to all this world, i think. My love is boring &  he is sad, maybe i'm guilty in it. The spring is here and  everything is cold and wet and windy. As I sit here gales roar outside (a bit of an exaggeration here but thats just the mood I'm in) and the rain bounces off of the window.

I'd like to say to this world I LOVE YOU!!! And it'll answer me I LOVE YOU TOO, but now. I'm like gun, if anyone needs me, i'm on & i'm shoot ( i meen useful), but if i'm not necessery , all people use me for only decoration in their life.  Sadly. sadly, coz all people are petty. I can't find a frind, what never will used me. I'm crying & screaming: PLEASE LOVE ME ! I AM ME! HELP ME! I WANT BE FREE! ... but no one answer me.

Since my computer got fixed me thinks I should write more journals or bloogs or whatever you want to call me...

All my words are not about me, it's only sadness and few beautifull scetch, hehe.