We do need to have a serious talk. I don't want to hurt you or worry you, but i want to lay out the reality of the situation. If I can go to st. petersburg it will be on a 3 month visa and then after I work there for 3 months they will decide if they want to extend my visa or not. If i don't want to work there or they don't want me there I'll just have to leave. I also have this oppertunity to open hostels here in ukraine which would be perfect for me. So even if I can come to st. petersburg I may leave in the spring or summer. It is important for you to know this about me. If you are ok with the fact that i may be leaving and you still want me to come I'll do everything I can to come to St. Petersburg. If you are going to be unhappy with the idea that I may be leaving because of the visa or because I want to go to Ukraine or back to the US, then it is better if I don't come. and maybe we can see each other this summer, if you ever want to see me again.

I am and will always try to be as honest with you as I can. You are right in a way that everything is equal for me and everyone is equal. I try to love and treat everyone equally. You are different in the sense that we sleep together and right now I only really want to sleep with you. But of course that will all change time. If you understand this about me and still want me around I will come if you don't want this I won't. OK? please, let me know what you think and feel.


Dasha of course I want to be with you not just for sex. You are kind, and sweet, and fun and beautiful and it has only been good spending time with you. But i know that I probably won't stay in Petersburg for long. So it seems like I'm going to end up hurting you no matter what. So it seems better if I don't come to SPB than to come st. petersburg and live with you and then leave after a few months. Plus I don't have the money right now to get a visa so I'm going to have to work and wait a bit anyways.

You don't need me. You are wonderful and talented and you can do anything you want to do. It is hard to be a student, but it will get better. I will write more when I know more. let's try to talk on skype some time soon. tell me when you can talk ok?

Вот так вот моими руками меня убили!!! Делаем выводы- курортный роман надо оставлять курортным... МНого громких слов. обещаний. надежд....а потом слишком много разочарований... Знал бы где упаду- сена подстелил((