Sometimes it can be so difficult to understand what exactly do want...You try to convince yourself that all is ok...But at the last moment you cry of the sharp truth...and i don't know what should I do...Sometimes I've got a question "If not I, who???"...But you underatand more and more, that it can be everybody, but not I...What the fuck....I don't know...I REALY NEED  his strange opinion, his strange action and so unusual behaviour...

God...help please....i hardly ever ask You for helpful hand....