kakie-to protivorechivye chustva.... to mne xorosho, to ploxo... poperemeno... to ya oooochen' schastliva... to chuvstvuyu sebya ...obmanutoy, chto li... razocharovannoy... nu pochemu?
mojet, eto vse-taki straxi...iz detstva? kogda schatliva,to u menya strax, chto vse zakonchit'sya ili do i naoborot... kogda chuvstvuyu sebya neschastnoy, strax, chto tak ono i budet prodoljat'sya...
a mojet u menya podsoznatel'no strax, chto menya brosyat, poetomu ya sama provociruyu?