В колонках играет - The Rolling Stones - Jumpin' Jack Flash

I'm stuck and don't know what to do. Everything I do is trying to switch to something that hasn't got rocks hidden in their pockets. I really want to breathe smoke and chew steel. But really what i want is to feel desired and needed. Maybe I'm selfish in this desire, but i find no sense in myself except making people happy.  They tell me I'm trying to control them when I'm trying to help. They say I'm oppressing when i suggest something. They say I'm bothering when i share something with them. And all I do is trying to fill the empty spaces.
I feel like an empty barrel of gazoline. Just switch on a flashlight to look into and it will explode. They could be filled with something burning and hot, but rather used to heat and bring life around. instead it's just visible emptiness ready to spit fire around. I'm really trying to control myself, but slowly I'm becoming what I have always feared to become. Everyone's shadow. Or maybe i just feel like one. The shadows always follows and only appears in the heat of sunlight and they seek for it when the sun is too hot to bear.
I began to feel ashamed of my will, desires and own interests.
Or maybe it's just that there's nothing that would be enough for me. I don't know.

But it's alright now. Life is a gas.
With the Jumpin' Jack Flash life's nothing but gas... [699x466]